Hello again, i'm back but only this time on an interesting topic, I am currently working on various programming activities and havn't done it in a long time so i feel like im going back to skool with all the programming tutorials though I am picking up a few new moves along the way as well as find some interesting languages that look quite good to program in.
Google have lauched a new programming language actually acouple a months ago and looks quite interesting it is somewhat like java, its meant to be the java killer but of course that is what they said about flash.. and well.. java is still on our smartphones and well flash.. isn't..

clee253

education and library board.. now also dietitians too!

Another RANT.. yea Some of you may be wondering about the title.. well our education system over here is done by a board that controls certain things.. and at the minute they are pushing that control and forcing many undermining things onto the poor students of our country.

though of course this is a country that takes it healthy eating advice from an overweight chief.. rather than a doctor.. but of course that is just how it is done.. idiots..

They are currently blaming all the childhood obesity on children eating too much rather than simply looking at why they were not chubby in the past.. the internet didn't exist... so yea breaking news the internet is making people fat or is it.. cuz I havn't done any proper physical activity in a number of years though I am barely over the 7st mark which is around 40 something kg for any of you ppl that work in new money..

right well I will have to start bringing g some of my interests into play more in the coming posts rather than just ranting all the time because undoubtedly you lot are bored of that stuff by now.

clee253

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Pain

I have a theory that i would like to share with you all. this theory is on pain something that i experience 24/7 in more ways than one and i know that it can become so very overwhelming and you just want to crawl into a ball and leave the world behind. trust me i have been there and in fact recently today i really really just wanted everything to end just for the pain to leave.
my theory is that there are particular types of pain. to my knowledge there isn't really anyway anyone can measure pain other than the old expression "between 1-10 10 being the worst and 1 being the best". i wanted to first of all give pain a form of measurement that everyone can use. this is because pain comes to so many forms.this is the problem with pain , nothing is ever the same with people every ones pains can be in different forms and pain relief can come in even a wider category of things. from a kiss from a loved one to the gentle breeze upon your cheek.
however all that being said some of us don't have a loved one from whom we get kisses and cant stand the fucking breeze as its way too cold. so we have to turn to other methods. i personally have went through so many at one point i honestly just didn't see a point in trying. i suffer from a list of medical problems which make life allot harder and  this added to my anger management problem which took me a good few years to bring out to my friends just doesn't really help things.
i want this blog to not only maybe give help other in my situation but to also maybe educate those who perhaps think that there friend of family member might be feeling the same way because i know from past experience sometimes telling people is harder than facing your problems.
i myself bottle shit up and this just got out of hand and i was forced to clear the air with friends as it began to threaten my life even more than it already has and that really scared me.
so as the first part as i mentioned above i want to give some way of people to list there pain. i personally feel better knowing something in a almost numbered form because then you can track your progress with it allot easier but allot of the time i was really just working randomly out of my head trying to figure out if i was a ten and a bit or a 9.
so my first category simply called "Category One" is for the type of pain which is literally momentary. getting annoyed over silly things is a form of pain. pain is anger , physical injury, mental distress and annoyance. category one related to annoyances which occur such as knocking over a glass by mistake. these things are meaningless acts of simply bad luck. however in allot of ways this category can be very very dangerous to a person. this things on there own are meaningless and petty. however , you let these things build together and you have allot of little things that have made themselves into a big thing. at the end of this blog i will give up some of my suggestions onto how to see this category as becoming a problem and how to ovoid letting them get to you.
the next category as i have very creatively named "Category 2" is a step p from category one int he sense that this is short term physical pain. such as a paper cut or something along those lines. this combined with category one can spark off allot of emotions and together can be very very edgy. me myself on a number of times have been trying to balance a number of category one problems and then a category 2 problem hits and out of no where everything goes a little mad. this category is one of the main ways in which someone can be pushed just that little bit over the edge.
"category 3" and yes the categories are all numbered and this is for confidence of reading and understanding my theory. this category is very similar to category 2 in the sense that it is physical pain but this time it is long term physical pain. this can be anything from Asama to skin problems both of which i have so know the full extend of there painful nature. this category for me is the number one way I'm pushed just too far. its just the one thing that grinds down your defences until you think fuck it whats the point and before you know it you have let everything get to you.
"category 4" is mental pain. this is pain that is in your head and although is technically isn't physical it can be so much more damaging to a person. with my anger problem it was mainly things going on inside my head which got to me very quickly and got in the way of just about everything. this can just put you into a very dark place and sometimes its not always getting out of that dark place that's the hardest part, but actually accepting that your there and then allowing others to help. this category is the worst so far as you can be put into this category by other people not just by yourself. bullying can lead to a person joining this category.
"category 5" the most dangerous category and the easiest one to fall into. this category is for those people who have a problem from each of the past 4 categories. this problem is the one that leads to long term mental and physical down fall. i myself am in this category but by using the categories i have been able to try and work at each thing one at a time starting from category one and working my way up through them and not trying to tackle everything at once but doing it piece by piece.
i hope that these categories are helpful to others and that they are a way for others to maybe take a better grasp of there situation and find a way out.
i will now list just some things that i believe will help with each of the categories i have listed above.

Category 1: enjoy the small things

Category 2: make a joke about it

Category 3: music and art can open the soul and set you free

Category 4: if you cant tell someone whats wrong then draw or paint what you feel, once it has a material self rip it up and through it away and you have already won the battle.

Category 5: you may not think yourself strong enough to deal with everything and life may go down hill very fucking quickly, but sometimes the best way to stay up is to have some friends holing your hand down that hill and then to take you back up.


yours truely tattooed ginger

Life of a angry calm person

Today was just one of those days that i believe alot of people will experience. Everything goes wrong and you think shits done hitting the fan it again hits that fucking fan.


But of course there is a bright side to all these days. Like such days like this i like to think to myself that all the people that annoyed me today will die a horrible death or grow old and lonely as i sit there and laugh at them. However it isnt fair to be mean to all these people as lets be fair they dont acctually count as people and i have no intention of having the RSPCA calling at my door complaining.


Although if i had one piece of advice to give to a person who is having the pleasure of experiencing one of these days it would be short , simple and poetic...... DON'T TAKE SHIT FROM THE SHIT HEADS!>


I would give this adivce because lets be serious the second we start letting them give us shit, is the second it all just keeps gitting worse.
For gods sake its time for all us people who have just no luck in the world to stand up! And stop this maddness and it will only get worse till we stop it.


On a brighter note the second the shit stops flying is the second it could all staert up again and this I believe is what gets alot of people in my situation down. This believe that not only is life shit but it will always be shit. No. Life is great we just need to it past alot of the crap in the day to day and look to the little things to save us when we are at are weakest.


For in the little things we can relax and have a brief glorious moment of peace untill we go back to battle with the world. I dont mean this in the sense that we are fighting the world away but guys come on there are some cunts out there that just piss people off for the sake of it.


I call these people the "fuck wittz". Soulless, worthless humanbeings whos only purpose is to test the will power of society until somone snaps and shots them in the face.
With what we can all only hope to be a very large gun, remember kids double tap!!!>


Though i strongly advice that people dont go to there levels and all that shit because we are better than them. Fuck my dead gold fish has more personality than these things. But it is very easy to think just turn the other cheek. Fuck that. They will push and push and push until you push back harder and my main advice on getting a fuck witt to leave you alone to simple. If he has a stick to hit you , git a bigger fuckin stick.


To conclude my rant the shitty days and the dickheads on the world I'd like to end on a song "Fat bottom girls you make the rocken world go round". Why you may ask, well because nothing truely matters unless its close to your heart and this song is close to mine because no matter how shit i feel no matter how down i am it always puts a smile on my face.


yours truely Tattooed Ginger.

Flash... ahhh... savior.. seriously?

Now to my rant of the day... yep its my opinion on the use of the adobe Flash program - I can see how it could be useful but it is far too hard to get used to and how on earth you are meant to learn the tools.. well I know what the tools do but to implement them is crazy! I tried for must have been 20 minutes to draw a curved line quite simple i though.. draw line then put cursor near line cursor changed appearance and then u hold down the click and move.. but no.. in flash it only bent half the line... I had managed to create a point in the middle of the line without even touching anything!

I then looked through many other options and decided at the end of it after unselecting shapes multiple times that if they were over my work deleted it... and that if you made it in layers you could not bring all the layers together because that would be too easy.. and if you tried to make the animation you created into an object using the symbol ability it just went nuts.. now here is the bit were anyone that does not know about computers is looking at me as if I have two heads.. yes this paragraph is a bit geeky and I have heard about a new online game that i'm going to take a look at but that is for another post.


So that anyone who does not like computing very much is not discriminated against I will expand on another part of the day that you might find more interesting that all the computer jargon.. I went to a class on communication and employability or something like that anyway.. I thought it was going to be a huge waste of time and for a while it was, with no one in the class really interacting and most of the questions asked by the teacher/lecturer or whatever you want to call them went unanswered. (this was the class that I learnt about the thumbs up, Chinese whispers and the lip reading thing that I commented on earlier)My main point being that it suddenly brightened up when we started talking about people interacting with others and how people interact, With the main thing being that looking at the person being essential as we all know if we are talking to some one and they are busy we do not really want to disrupt them and so usually end the conversation.

But we then moved on to how you interpret text messages and emails and how you can get multiple meaning from different things - which personally I found quite good as their are many things that those little text emotions can clarify (if anyone reading this has any thoughts on emotions in text message do please comment, as they are said to be informal but I personally believe they are very useful and wouldn't mind seeing them in an email to clarify what the company is telling me, any thoughts?)

Another point was body language as I mentioned a bit, this is another thing I would like to hear about anyone know any things about body language or anyone have any funny experiences about interpreting body language? - I know this is a new blog and so I haven't really got a large user base yet but start as you wish to go on and hopefully I will get some good input back from readers xD


Many thanks,
clee253

The life of a student..

Well.. here we are again, yes I know i'm not the best at greeting people to the blog - but anyway we shall continue I am pretty determined to not let the blog go the same way as my new years resolution.. there's a question how come we decide on doing something for new year like "yea! i'm going to get up at 6am and go running from now on..." and then by two days later we are struggling to get out of bed as the alarm goes off for the umpteenth time telling us that it is in fact 8 and we should have been on a bus by now...


If we continue down this rather strange philosophical road for a minute I actually managed to come across a rather interesting question today for those that would be interested in randomly thinking about puzzling questions in their spare time *drum roll* "Does money actually exist?".


Now I know there's loads of paper floating about saying i'm worth 2 sausage rolls and a stick of gum, but what is it actually worth because I know that all the 'money' in the world is backed up by gold because it says on the note "promise to pay the bearer on demand" (I would quite like to know what this actually means - theoretically does this mean that I could go to the treasury and swap my £5 note for gold?)and with money being backed up by gold how expensive is it? it's not like we actually need it.. iron is used for tools and building without iron we would not have our weapons to kill each other with.. or the tall building we have. I don't know about you but I have never came across a building made from gold and so I think we just imagine that gold is worth something when really its not.. I dunno i'm not a genius but sure if any of you want to post that question in your threads or on social networking sites and see what you come up with let me know how it goes.


Woah, that last paragraph was a long one perhaps I should have broken it up a bit, but for the main part that is just the interesting little question that was rattling around in my head during my talk on animation and something about communication today - if i'm honest I wasn't really paying full attention. Though I did like the bit on Chinese whispers to show how distorted things can end up after hear-say. Also found out that the thumbs-ups symbol here means something completely different in the middle-east.. and that if you mouth "elephant juice" someone looking at you will lip read it as "I love you". Yes.. the life of a student is very exciting and you learn many useful things..


Hope you enjoyed reading,
clee253

In the beginning I decided to make a blog in order to vent frustration that I manage to build up during the day and to also randomly wonder about many different things that manage to pop-up into my mind like why is water wet and such incredible intelligent questions of life...


So after I got a booklet named "Steps to deal with stress" thrown at me I decided that I would try to loosen up on an internet block to somehow vent my frustration and maybe brighten up a few peoples days while you get a laugh at some of the things I manage to get myself all worked up about - or of course if you have found yourself in the situation you could help me get through the difficult times such as being killed continuously in Call of Duty.. or on the other hand you could just laugh at my misfortunes - though I will try to do something more than just rant about everything.


So if you have any topics yourself that you find annoying or interesting puzzles or any amusing jokes please comment and give me something to do in these long days of repetitively typing on a keyboard. Though that is another rant for another day :), But i'm just saying hello and welcoming everyone to the blog - hopefully you will enjoy it.


many thanks,
Conor